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Gangs and Me: My real life story - a tale of terror

The Daily Complaint

...trouble from the very beginning...

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Sunday, September 8, 2002

This is how I got into trouble to begin with - by keeping a personal journal which I "thought" was a private thing. This is also how the crooks found me, and continued to manipulate things in my life against me.  My journal was supposed to be personal, private, and therapeutic - and was started in high school.  I included some of the things that were happening in my life at that time, and how I felt: I also included poetry and stories I had written.  I never thought that this would be something that crooks would use to beat me up and locate any weaknesses I had, out of spite.  The initial purpose for starting a journal was to try to sort out, on paper, some of the weird things that were going on in my life, and to justify them.  I think that many epople do this.  I thought then that these things were occurring in my life because I was supposed to be some kind of a bad seed character and did not deserve to be in a normal family, where the parents acted normal and did not scapegoat me. Nobody ever bothered to tell me that keeping a personal journal was similar to writing articles for a newspaper but in my case, unbeknownst to me, this is exactly what it was.  Keeping a journal invited perpetrators to take advantage of me and I had unknowingly enabled this.  The thing about this is that I was truly having a terrible time with my family and with bullies when I started this, and really had no one to go to except for my guidance counselor, who was really not equipped to handle this, and who had the responsibility for an entire class of kids, which put me in the nuisance category.  I was also interested in creative writing and was in a long distance relationship where letter writing was the main way to communicate.  All of this writing was used by crooks against me.  This also caused problems between this boyfriend and his sisters because they apparently knew what I had written in the letters to him and teased him about it.  He kept calling them his "snoop sisters" because he assumed, like anyone else would, that they were going into his room and taking these letters to read.  This was my first relationship and because of this and other things, the relationship got worse and worse until I decided that he was just too abusive and that I had no interest in ever seeing him again.  I wonder how many other people could survive living in a glass bowl like this, particularly if they had no idea they were "in the glass bowl".  This amounts to never being able to have any private moments or private thoughts or intimate relationships, period.

I also noticed that none of these other people put their OWN children in situations where they are supposed to spend years and years writing and analyzing, never get paid, and throw these writings in the fire, until person runs out or energy and decides to start a web site, out of desparation.  Just wanted to mention that I "did" notice this, although this was "always" supposedly my choice according to the folks doing this.  My issues are that I was never asked about this and given an opportunity to say 'yes' or 'no', was manipulated and abused by gangs most of my life and someone 'forgot' to tell me why this was happening to allow them to play fraud games and 'pretend' that this "knowledge" was coming from some of these other people.  In addition to this, because crooks put me in this position years and years ago without telling me, I did the same thing that any other person would do - which is to write stories, keep a journal, write poems, write letters, write papers for college, and etc.  I also think some of these abusers thought that I was corrupt or doing this on purpose, because I "never" wrote about things that crooks were doing or about gang activity - for a two reasons:  1) I had no idea I was supposed to be noting and recording this, and 2) I just thought this was a 'fact of life' that would never change until I could get divorced from hy husband who seemed to condone crook activity or make excuses for the crooks.  Therefore, the end result would have been something that looked like a "Biblical" cult, based on letters, stories, verse, and God along with "other" things from my life that correlated with the Christian Bible, by coincidence, particularly if someone was looking for the correlation intentionally.  I suspect that most victims who are natural writers (aka they tend to write down many things as a matter of course), would end up with something very similar.   There is also the distinct possibility that crooks, knowing that I 'write things down'  manipulated this, in an attempt to scare people and to enable the perpetrators to continue to be crooks.   

September 13, 2002
My son still refuses to get any kind of a job, but his girlfriend still has her fast food job.  She works at this job from 4:00pm to 'whenever' (usually until closing time - about 10:00pm) but job is only part time.  Her mother is now 'gone' with their house locked up and is supposedly locked up in Barberton Hospital in the psychiatric/detox ward where she is supposed to be for at least 3 months, and her daughter will not visit her there for an unknown reason.  The "extra" people who were staying in my son's room have now stopped this, so it is just the two of them (son and his girlfriend), plus the baby.  But, every night late, late at night,the two of them leave and are gone, or are in and out during the wee hours of the night (11:30pm till about 3:00am).  I can hear them walking up and down the stairs when they are home and opening and shutting the front door.  Then, they sleep most of the day.  There is no explanation given for this weird behaviour.  Then, they do clean up the room they stay in which "was" my son's room, but refuse to do dishes, or clean the upstairs bathroom that they use along with me, and have piled up laundry from their room in the hamper in the hall, which my son refuses to wash for an unknown reason.  Since I have stopped trying to relate to the people in this community, I am stuck at home ALL of the time or driving through town to go to the store to get cigarettes, and am stuck with the burden of doing all of this housework all by myself, which I hate.  Since the "man" of the house isn't married to me, has a disability, and does nothing while home here but yell things from his room for me to get for him when he is here and not at work, there is never any normal conversation between he and I, or rarely at best and only short.  When he is here, he rarely leaves his room and television is on 24 hours a day in his room, mostly with porn movies.   I have said before that by stranding me in Wooster which I call "the rathole", these crooks have effectively taken away every part of my life that I enjoyed, including the people I liked, and inflicted on me everything that I did not like, which seems to be a "spite" thing more than anything else. 
In the computer area:  
Someone who has gained access to my computer from some other location has gathered up all of the components of my computer and named it something else.  (This has to be someone with computer knowledge, and a 'twit' attitude).  Then, this sits as an icon on my "desktop" scenerio when computer is turned on.  I have tried to disassemble this 'gathering' unsucessfully.  Also, someone (again, a person who is gaining access to my computer information from some other location) keeps corrupting my firewall program, forcing me to keep uninstalling this program and them re-downloading and reinstalling.  This 'corruption of firewall' occurs at sometime when computer is turned off, and I find this when I again turn computer on and am stuck with a corrupted firewall program that I cannot run, and "have to" do something with.  This is no big deal in the scheme of things but is very annoying.
 
Saturday, September 14, 2002
I was just thinking today: these people set me up as a victim...not because I was a bad person, a corrupt person, or had anything inherently unlovable or not good enough about me, but to help a prostitute.    This really is sort of biblical.  I don't know how I got into this position: I don't know why other people are allowed to be human, but I am supposed to be some kind of crook or die.  Other people are "allowed" to have normal relationships, normal families, normal lives and work in jobs and career fields that they have chosen and be paid, but never Kim, the identified victim.  Other people do not have to go through life fighting with bullies, and being trapped, but are actually allowed to make choices in a non hostile world and live their lives.  Other people are allowed to be in adoring, mutual relationships, not be trapped as some kind of slave by a perpetrator, or live on the streets.  I used to wonder what special quality it took to just be able to live, like everybody else, and not go through this with these crooks all of the time.  The definitive factor seems to be a whore, or the daughter of some crook.  Crooks pulled me into all of this abuse and isolation out of spite, and so they could continue to run their cult, and empower people who should learn to live their own lives.  Why does it always have to come down to either me or a crook, and the crook ALWAYS wins?   I am not a terrorist, a drug dealer, a whore, a princess, mentally ill, retarded, or anyone to be feared or avoided.  Yet, I have to put up with this kind of thing because I am "not" part of the organized crime system.  I also 'understand' that when crooks rearended my car in Columbus when I was working at my job as a social worker, the area was polluted with all kinds of undercover police.  I suspect that many of these police originated from this Wooster/Orrville/Smithville/Rittman area.  Yet, not one of them would testify.  I think this says a lot about what is going on, and what went on.  I feel like I am spinning my wheels in this no win situation.  I agree that things have gotten ridiculous with these "spies" spying about things of little or no significance.  These are things that are important to these people running a cult and their own little "revenge schemes", but not in the best interest of other people.  This is the kind of pettiness that I keep trying to eliminate from my own life, but is how so many people got tied up in these nonsense things.  Some of these people "should be" more global in their thinking in my opinion, but for some reason, but they can't be, so they do what they "can" do, which is victimize others.  I could go into details about specific "icons" who represent, or are similar to many other people, (not to be confused with any kind of representative),but I believe that would be petty, so I have no interest in this. [  By the way, what is the "B" button for? :) ]  As you can probably tell, I have no interest in "this part" of this 'clique' behaviour other than observing the behaviour and commenting on it.  The problem seems to be not only are these folks running lookalike characters, laundering money, and got into the media and political systems, they also pull victims into this like me who would rather be living their lives.  If it were up to me, I would get out of this "community voice" which has never, ever, yielded anything for me but pain and trouble and away from these gangs who have chosen to be bullies, to develop my own life my own way, with people I like and have chosen, but I really don't have that choice apparently.
 
September 15, 2002
The way I got pulled into this problem with "these" people involved in the realm of prostitution had to do with my own need to have a normal realtionship.  I got pulled into a situation with people who turned out to be  problem laden and weird, because of my own sexual problems, instead of accepting abstinance in my marriage and my "figurehead" status.  The man I got involved with seemed to be interested in me, but was having marital problems where he "claimed" he had to keep sleeping on the sofa, due to some sexual issues his wife had, and I was also married.  This man really had little going on for him in any way but in this sexual area, and the fact that he seemed to like me which is why I got involved with him in the first place besides the fact that I was sexually deprived and lonely.  But, as this 'relationship' developed, this man refused to treat me the way I wanted to be treated insofar as establishing a normal relationship with me, and his wife was vindictive and sought me out, as a spite type of thing.  Because I was in a position where my husband was scheming to try to find ways to get rid of me anyhow and take our child since I was then in college and was working my way of the "intentured servant/celibate figurehead/dependant wife" role, he tried to trap me with this man.  This guy had no real interest in me when it came down to making a choice, or in leaving his wife but wanted to keep getting involved in situations like this one with me, where his wife also got involved only to abuse the other female involved 'with her husband' who was really an estranged husband at best, as if some kind of "set up" situation.  This is where crooks kept calling me names like some kind of whore, and I "think" that this is the kind of thing that this particular gang does to pull female victims into prostitution, because I think prostitution is one of their "areas".  What goes along with this is this missing 14 year old girl from Wayne County, Ohio, whose body has not been found, but where a suspect has been arrested.  If I were doing this investigation, I would assume that the girl is still alive and was pulled into prostitution or some similar role by one of these gang members, with a name and identity change and "etc."  This is because a 14 year old girl, no matter what she looks like, is a prime person to be pulled into this prostitution area, particularly if she had any kind of abuse in her family of origin to begin with and is vulnerable.  This particular girl, from her photos doesn't look like a model, but in this prostitution area of organized crime I don't think that this matters a great deal, particularly if the girl is young, willing, and already has indicators of abuse going on, and wants to run away.  Also, because of dealing with a gang who like to use and set up victims, I suspect that the man arrested and detained "may have" the indicators of being the perpetrator, but this particular gang protects it's own even to the point of capturing victims to "wash gang members" while the victim gets into this thinking this is something else, (similar to this previously mentioned bad relationship).    This particular gang also has a tendency to make things as difficult as possible for identified victims by constant abuse, isolation, and mud slinging/defamation of character, and many people, if given an opportunity, would prefer to live in ANY kind of institution where they can "take their chances", not have to keep putting up with this abuse, can recover and get healthier from a run down state, and can then leave after a specific amount of time, rather than keep going through nonstop abuse. 
   AT NOON:
   According to News reports, a body has now been  found and they are trying to determine whether this body is of the missing girl.  
 
5:40 pm:
I think a very unusual group of people is "The Harley Riders" group.  These are not just ANY motorcycle group, but a very specific group of Harley Davidson riders.  The thing about this, is that group is mostly male, with only one woman I have ever seen who was more than a figurehead/icon/go-along who rides on the back of some man's motorcycle, and rode her own motorcycle.  (That women had a German accent).  These men always have girlfriends who are the prettiest women and who don't look like normal women at all but like some kind of model, yet the men are usually not the least bit attractive, in any way, so one wonders why such pretty women would choose these ugly men.  Some of these people are highly intelligent folks, which is obvious by talking with them.  These people never have jobs, because they have a certain lifestyle, which includes looking a certain way, but always seem to have money.  I think these people are also the ones "into" sado-masochism and other kinds of strange things, and for some reason always seem to be able to do things "society wise" which would put other people in jail as some kind of psychopath or sociopath, but they never if rarely go to jail.  Some of these people are down to earth, and some are snobs, but what they all have in common is that they all are snobs about riding any kind of motorcycle other than  a "Harley".  I met some of these people in Columbus as they went to A.A. and came in with drug and alcohol issues, but they are part of a much larger group, who have gatherings held in specific locations called "rodeos".  A lot of these people seem to be living the life that young people, who don't ever want to grow up or have any responsibility want to live with little or no retribution but there were no very young people in group - as most of the people are middle age or older.  Also, these folks rarely have children and if they do, they seem to drop out of the group as if some sort of unspoken rule of group which says that members of this particular group are never supposed to have children or they can no longer be part of the group. By coincidence, I though that these people were "really cool" when I was younger (18 or 19 and was a student at Ohio University in Athens), as I had met of few of them then.  If I would have had an uninterupted life and would have gotten along with these people and had been empowered to do so, I think I would have gotten a Harley myself and learned to ride a motorcycle because I liked them that much, for no real good reason.  In reality, these people are the "empowered outcasts" of society, and no kind of role model. 
 
Why I don't like my son's girlfriend?
Lots of reasons....I think she is part of a crook family and looks exactly like the woman who is "supposed to be" her "young Granny" who drives a new, expensive red sportscar and is Appalachian, and I think that the woman who is "supposedly" her mother, who looks nothing like this girl or either one of her sisters, is just another victim.  I also have noticed that this girl seems to pull my son into things, is manipulative, and lies about things that are obvious, as if a am a dummy, and she seems to be a little intellectually slow along with being very evasive.  Also, she doesn't seem to like me, but likes my ex-husband a lot.  I also notice my son taking a lot of responnsibility for this little "blonde baby" which clearly isn't his, and which this "girlfriend" had out of wedlock by imposing herself on a much younger child who was in a foster home, but because of the fact that she was also a minor, intead of being charged with a crime, she became pregnant and now receives payment from the state of Ohio because of the situation of this "father".  Then, to top all of this off, this girl is not really attractive and my son could do much better in every way in a relationship.  
 
September 16, 2002 
I think what happened to me is a good case for abortion and adoption.  This is because I was obviously an unwanted child, and instead of aborting me, my parents decided to allow me to live, and then abused me.  I think that under the circumstances of having this abusive mother, I should have been adopted into a family where I had "roots" aka relatives, parents, and 'history', like other children in families where they were badly, intentionally, and repeatedly abused like I was.  However, instead of being adopted into a family, I got pulled into a "crook system" where I was always supposed to be wrong and was always a victim no matter what I said or did.  I think the main reason that this happened is NOT because I was some kind of retarded or mentally ill woman (although whether my mother was, based on how she acted is still questionable), but because I look like someone that my mother did not like.  I was probably one of those kids born where the married woman was "loose" and was screwing around with other men, or got married to begin with because she was pregnant, and I have had to accept the responsibility, and the abuse for this situation, which I had nothing to do with all of my life.  Crooks would not let me live a quality life, not because of myself or any problem that I had, but because the people around me were crooks and this was intentionally "set up" by whatever gang set all of this up to begin with.  Then, because I look like a  normal woman and not some kind of model, I was supposed to be punished for this also, and was supposed to be stuck with a low functioning crook as a husband, or one night stands, or no relationships or friendships at all, but never a normal relationship with normal people who were truly my friends, (not gang members looking for trouble and "achievement through abusing a victim").  I also think that the place where my son's girlfriend's mother is, is where a foster or adoptive parent is supposed to be.  This is because his girlfriend looks like the woman who is supposed to be her Grandma,(who looks young enough to be her mother), and the other two girls in family also do not look anything like the woman who is supposed to be their mother but also do not look like this "Granny" character, either. (What this red sportscar and "Children's Services" correlates with was a woman in her late 20's (who was supposed to be a coworker), with long blonde hair, who did not do her "hired" job due to acting as a prostitute in a role to a dysfunctional male supervisor at a rural Appalachian agency in a hospital, which was supposed to serve mainly the children of the community.  In this work scenrio, these were two girls who had definate sexual abuse/acting out issues, but the people who were supposed to be my coworkers did not want to become involved in these cases which were supposed to be their job.  This is how some of these agencies enable this problem and then abuse victims who wonder how they ever got stuck in corrupt agencies like this.  I quit this job).  According to the way crooks have set this things up, this "mother", is now divorced and was supposedly married twice, but is "stuck in time" relationship wise, and allegedly has sexual relationships with men at least 10 - 15 years younger than herself.  This makes sense, because from what I have seen and been exposed to, "Children's Services" in Wayne County, Ohio appears to be dysfunctional.  This goes along with the fact that when I was in college,  crooks kept trying to make my field placement in college "Children's Services" exclusively, probably as some kind of predecessor to moving to this area, (according to the plans of whoever set all of this up), and working for that particular agency.  I really did do a partial field placement at Franklin County Children's Services, but because of whatever crooks did prior to me moving up to this area, I can't get hired at either Children's Services here in Wayne County, or for The Department of Human Services in Wayne County, Ohio.  This seems to be a perfect set up for crooks.  This is because instead of "Children's Services" ot "Department of Human Services" caseworkers intervening in dysfunctional family situations like they normally would, this is set up as a "door" for the crooks.  Now, instead of people being pulled out of negative situations and normalized in other situations with support being given by caseworkers, crooks either pull these people into the law enforcement system as victims to put an extra load on local, small town law enforcement people, or into some kind of criminal activity.  This is a perfect opportunity for crooks to set up "fake deaths" where 'remains of a person are found but unidentifiable' while the actual person , like the current case of this 14 year old girl, are pulled into prostitution.    
P.S. - The parents of the 14 year old girl that is currently missing in Wayne County appeared on a television news interview.  The mother of this girl, who has red hair, was in my aerobics class when I was going to aerobics, and seemed to have a close friendship with the aerobics instructor, who used to call on her in this class.  This was so frequent that it was like part of this instructor's "clown/chatter" routine that went along with the aerobics teaching part of class.  This mother was also in front row in the class, and won a drawing for something in the class.  The aerobics instructor was an attractive blonde "bimbette" type, and for some reason I thought she was part of the "Bank One" team.  When I asked her about any affiliation with "Bank One" one day after class, she denied this.  All of this is still another reason that I don't think that this missing 14 year old is really missing at all, but is part of the fraud system that these people have set up. 
 
ALSO...in the bratto area... 
Today my son, his girlfriend, and a kid who just started coming around walked into very backwoods area of field next to us - and were carrying a water jug.  I walked over to see where they were going, and my son, when he came back into house, told me that I should not be "following him".  I told him  that he should not "be enabling these people, and that I know that he knows better", but since crooks have set him up as some kind of unruly gang member or gang leader that I am supposed to be afraid of, I suppose I am supposed to expect him not to listen to me.   

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September 17. 2002
1.  Today, I found a checking account receipt, on the table at home for something that says :
         Received check:        $ 62.00
         Sold check:               $60.00
         To checking XXXXX:   $2.00
The account number listed on this receipt is NOT my account number, although this is the bank I also use.  I really have no idea what this is doing here, since it clearly isn't mine, and nobody else in house uses that same bank (First National Bank - Cleveland Road branch).  I have heard other people say in past that "First National Bank" was supposed to be "the mob's bank" but again, I paid little attention to this then, and considered it to be mud slinging.
 
2.  Also, there is something strange going on in Wooster media wise, the last two days.  Last night, I noticed News vans from Channel 10 (Columbus) and Channel 8 (Cleveland) by the Justice Center, ut this was at about 10:30 - 11:00 pm, not during regular hours.  I assumed that this media coverage had to do with the missing 14 years old girl, but have no idea why they showed up so late.  I just happened to go out and drive through town due to getting cigarettes but I don't think that anmything happens by coincidence!)  Then, tonight, I noticed an unmarked white van, in the downtown parking lot 'wing' across thje street from "Everything Rubbermaid" and just outside of "Gallery in the Vault".  These people had  a white unmarked van with a 'dish' on top as if some sort of film crew and a 'shadow umbrella' set up. but the only two people there were two men - one in a white unmarked van and the other in another vehicle.  I consider this strange because of the late hour that these people showed up.  The strange thing about this is that in Wooster, there are usually a number of people out driving and walking around at that time, but in the last few days, it was extremely quiet and calm with the streets literally deserted.  There is a problem with Social Services in this area because apparently, many of these problems in the community got worse due to many people being laid off due to cutbacks.  This is why many of the offices at The Department of Human Services here are vacant.  As a result, things that should have been monitered by social service workers weren't,and the burden of this fell on local law enforcement people who were overburdened, and who aren't equipped to 'follow up' on people.  I also noticed on "Fox 8 News" tonight a story about a woman who apparently has a web site, named Penny, who wnats to divorce her husband and who is asking people who visit her site to send her money to get a divorce.  I think all of this is just a little more than strange.            

September 19, 2002
Today, in the cult, I went to a workshop which was better than usual because at least this speaker seemed to know his subject area a little more than most have in past, and was not really repetitive for me.  Before, due to running a cult, every one of these workshops has been a repeat of what I have already covered.  This is part of this cult crooks are running and is part of evidence of low and underdevelopment in some areas that should be more developed than this.  This is because instead of developing things like this, crooks were too involved with abusing and using operatives, and never thought that they would be put into a position where people would notice this.  But, even if people do notice, in Wooster rathole, nothing can be done because of a gang blocking people in.  I have filed numerous complaints about various things that are normal to complain about with no result because I don't think this correspondence is getting through to the right people.  Then, also today I went to Sally Beauty Supply but the clerks there claimed I was "not allowed" to purchase anything from their store because I am not a licensed beautician.  This an another thing that a complaint could be filed about, but would do no good, because a particular gang is causing all of this to occur, to run a cult.
 
I think one of the main set up items, emotionally, in this ratholer's cult has to do with relationship issues - in fact I know this to be true.  In this 'set-up', which is a stumbling block, I am supposed to be focused on a romantic relationship which never existed, will never exist and is part of the cult.  This 'relationship' issue is apparently supposed to be an obsession and is probably one of the crooks in the cult, but in reality this isn't that important except for the emotional effect this is supposed to have on me.  I have noticed that crooks get angry when I am not affected and do other abusive things to cause a reaction, as a spite thing.  These manipulative crooks use operatives for things like this, instead of what operatives are supposed to be used for in this "Teamster's movement", or whatever this large group of abusers is.  I keep calling this a "Teamster's movement" not because I know this to be true, but because a large number of the perpetrators involved in these gangs seem to be working class people.  The primary issue is all of this is that a group of crooks keep blocking me, and/or trying to trap me with another female in a romantic relationship, or an unwanted male, because apparently bonding with "white trash", or other unwanted people in a sexual way, is part of this segment of the cult.  In actuality, all of these things are time wasters and ways to trap and contain victims as some kind of political maneuver.  In addition to this "Teamster's movement" being in a  primary place in many of these manipulations, there is a plain old crook gang behind the scenes, causing as may small problems and abuse as possible for identified victims to be irritating, abusive, and annoying as possible.  The only way for me to "fit in" to this environment is to not try to evaulate this and 'just zone out' to shut out the abuse, because I am not a part of any of these gangs manipulating this environment, and interactions with these people makes me a victim, sometimes worse than other times.  Although these crooks keep trying to cause as many distractions as possible and have earmarked me as a victim because specific local bitches who are operational in causing all of this ,who were supposed to be "stars" in this evaulative role were apparently displaced by me and don't like it much.  There are legitimate drug related issues in this area.  My son seems unable to fulfill many of his major life responsibilities in the way he should be able to because of bonding with a gang who are drug involved.  Crooks are trying desparately to "push through marijuana legalization" behind other peoples backs, and this area and other rural areas would be where a lot of this product would be grown, so is a "protected area":  protected by these antagonistic gangs.  Then, because I am a female and "not from Ohio" according to the crooks doing this, I am supposed to be content with a subserviant, unwanted 'female' type of housewife role, a whore, a model, or white trash, but never myself, which is another spite motivated thing done by crooks.  If I act in a normal, assertive way, crooks keep punishing me for this, because of the way this community was set up and because of who 'was supposed to' be in the position that I currently am in here, I "think" : aka one of the nasty bitches who are part of this gang.  I suspect that whoever this person was "supposed to be", they are very much in favor of this "marijuana movement".  Crooks did the same things to me that I think they do in all of these other 'escheat' situations - that is: badgering and abusing victims to get their way, in many, many ways, and this is how I became so familiar with the kinds of things these crook gangs do in escheat situations (to get their hands on other people's assets - whatever the assets happen to be).  

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September 19, 2002 - (evening)
The most recent crook activity seems to be someone who is now trying to 'escheat' me out of access to my own web site.  Person or person keeps putting up 'white screens' to deny me the editing area, plus keeps trying to jam up the system at the entrance screen to web site.  I "think" this is the same crook or gang member who has been continually tapping into my computer to corrupt files, and 'etc'.  This is just another in a series of escheat/gang activities and is to be expected. 
 
September 20. 2002
No journal entry - computer defragmentating
September 21, 2002
 
    "Teamsters and me"
I keep saying "Teamsters" in this content because in the past, I recall various family members complaining about "Teamsters" being corrupt.  In my own life experience, little of which involved "Teamsters", when I was employed at UPS, "Teamsters" representatives were willing to be helpful, but I quit the job because of abuse by a gang who worked there.  The only way that "Teamsters" could have helped me was to have some kind of monitor there to observe all of this behaviour, and then I would have been scapegoated for this anyhow.  They also tried to negotiate with the problem people involved and really did do what they were supposed to do in this.  I decided to quit because I did not want to have some kind of monitor there who would have filed complaints on these other people and fired them, so they could then retailiate against me, and because this job was part time when I was in college anyhow, and so to keep this part time night job was more trouble than it was worth.  The other issue that involved "Teamsters" in this business was the large number of young people who came and left after two or three months, and the fact that "Teamsters" took union dues out of paychecks for the first three months that people worked there.  Some of the other people were saying "Teamsters are crooks and take people's union dues and then force them to leave", but in reality, the job that these people were hired into was a very hard, physical job and they knew this when being hired.  This is because jobs loading and unloading trucks were fast paced because of the large number of packages to be loaded and the constant speed that these conveyor belts were set at, and the people hired into these jobs were usually young and usually male and usually college students.  It is totally possible that after working there for a short time and seeing how hard the job was, these people quit and did not stay "with it" or "stick with it".
 
I am also tempted to say: "Play dirty and reacquire these people's assets", because of what they did to me out of anger, but in reality, I think this would only keep this "Gangster popularity" thing going.  However, I do think that government people need to 'acquire the assets of the crooks' to show other people that this behaviour, which seems to consist of medically abusing people in various ways is not appropriate.  What seems to occur in many, many cases is that people who are in the medical field medically abuse people - either by "prescribing" unnecessary medical procedures which are harmful to the person, or "prescribing" or "overprescribing" unnecessary and harmful drugs  to cause the "victim" to be medically unfit so that their assets can be acquired by crooks doing these things.  Because the crooks doing these things think that everyone should be "an informed consumer",  they put the blame for this back on the victim.  In addition, the medical community has protected itself by placing 'bimbo lawyers' around them who will not file lawsuits against them for these things, and claim "there are already too many medical malpractice suits which makes malpractive insurance too high for medical people", and I have seen or heard about very few lawsuits filed against medical people where the victim actually won.  In my case these people tried hard to pull me into medical abuse, but when this failed, they surrounded me with abusive gangs.  Also, instead of getting a divorce settlement so that I could move on with my life, crooks abused operatives and kept rotating them into the place where my "husband" was supposed to be, and then claimed that this did not really occur and that I was "just crazy", which I think was money motivated.  This boils down to medical abuse in this psychiatric area, because these folks helped the crooks by not helping me.  These are the kinds of dirty things that these people do and have done for a long time, to enable them to use and abuse operatives to run a cult.  I also noticed that on the internet, when researching about the "Wal-Mart" corruption that supposedly exists, things listed as "Corrupt Wal-Mart activities" include things like  scalping people's wages, getting out 'peasant policies' on low level workers and then cashing these in upon death without telling the family members that these policies exist, harassing employees, filing lawsuits against employees instead of the other way around, and creating a generally hostile work environment.  (By coincidence, these are the things that were all attributed to 'Teamsters' in the past).  However, when I talked to a man who said he had been working at this Wooster Wal-Mart for about three years, he said that none of these things had happened to him or anyone who worked there that he knew of but that "this Wal-Mart is not unionized".  He also said that "Meijers stores are all unionized, and that opening a Meijers store here was "not a good idea".   This could be the reason that someone
prevented a Meijers store from being built in Wooster, Ohio, if many people who are 'empowered' share this anti Union sentiment. 
 
In a personal area, I have noticed that every time I am in the car with my ex husband for any reason, he becomes angry and threatening.  This causes me to become angry with him, and I 'think' is someone's plan.  This happens sometimes at home also, but seems to occur every time I am with him in the car.  This occurs mainly because this man is self absorbed to the point that the only things that really matter to him are things that directly affect,  or have something to do with him directly, and he wants to punish me for not being attentive enough to him, or for asking other people questions who are around me.  This is the same "personality characteristic" that this man has had for many, many years which was always annoying, but it seems that as his level of disability  increases, so does his level of abuse.     

P.S. - I also have a minor problem because of prostitution that goes on on MSN.  This is only a minor problem for me because my philosophy with this is like many other things:  "If you don't like a person, thing, or situation, do not interact with it and go elsewhere, and there are definately other computer services".  The problem seems to be that in 'chat' there are many "Web Cam cuties" who show up and send victims a 'flash whisper'.  The message usually says something like "Hi!  I'm Bambi! Come look at me playing with myself on my webcam!"  Then, there is a clickable link.  When the victim clicks on the link, there is a photo of some young attaractive female (who is usually white and would have to be white trash), and a link which says to pay a certain amount for a viewing.  This is usually hooked up to a phone charge or a credit card.  As far as I am concerned, this is prostitution, and in Ohio, prostitution is illegal, yet these people continue to somehow get on this system and do this by going from room to room after throwing their porn invitiations.  Yet, someone who has some sort of "banning option" on this system and who is occasionally online has thrown me out for coming into a room they are in for no apparent reason.  This is of little concern to be because I consider whoever this is to be a troublemaker, but a real concern that I have mentioned to other people in regard to this online is that in one of the 'rooms' on MSN I go to, there seem to be some severely psychiatrically impaired people, and in other rooms there are just abusers, who this would not affect.  I think that this "online prostitution" is a trigger for some of the people who have been sexually abused in the past to reexperience psychiatric symptoms.  I don't think that these people discriminate and probably do the same "porn throwing for prostitution" to everyone who they see on line, no matter what name they use, because this is a moneymaker for someone.  This is really none of my business because I don't consider MSN to be a necessity anyhow and have found some of these people who come online to be strange and rude, but the principle of "this thing" is that this could be hurting people and I think this is being done on purpose to try to trigger people and gain laughs. 

September 23, 2002
Two things happened today.  First, I am in another temporary job.  What these people keep doing and have consistently done for years with these temporary jobs through Adecco is that I work at these jobs for just about enough time to earn enough money to pay the minimum payment on my three credit cards, two of which are Capital One, and one of which is Direct Merchants, but not much more than this.  Then, the agency calls with some excuse about the business not wanting me to come back.  This is the same kind of thing that these crooks have been doing with these jobs which are not supposed to have been temporary, so I suspect the gang involved in this more than the agency.  I put some charges for continuing education classes and etc. that I needed on these credit cards because I wanted to keep my social work license current, and because I m\never get enough money in any lump sum from my ex-husband to do these things without putting them on a credit card.  This current temporary job is part time and is supposed to be long term, but I sort of expect them to do the same thing that has been done repeatedlywith this.  In addition to this, I have in the past interviewed for other positions that were not temporary, and am never selected and always receive a rejection letter.  The last time I asked why was from an agency here in Wooster and I was told that I didn't have 'good references'.  Therefore, what is happening and has happened is that these crooks have pulled me into a Catch 22 situation.  I can't become employed if no one will hire me or let me work, and have no money to pick up and leave because of not getting any kind of divorce settlement and being played games with for years, plus being abused by gangs.  In addition to this, my son's girlfriend moved out this evening and her sister came to help.  I am not sure what happened because both my son and the girl, at different times and without the other being there, told me that what precipitated this "move out" was that the other threatened to hit him or her (depending on who is talking).  She told me she was moving because of this.  He told me he asked her to leave, and then called to see if she had moved out before coming back home.  Whatever happened, it happened this afternoon when I was at work.  In addition to this, my son got a letter from theindsurance company two days ago telling him what they would offer him and asking him to call them.  My ex-husband today says that my son wants more than the amount mentioned in the letter, but for some reason, when the letter came, my son opened his mail, then took it in to show his father and shut the door, shutting me out of this.  I never saw the letter.  In addition to this, after this moveout occurred today and my son returned to the house, I noticed that almost everything was gone except fro a few clother in the closet and some drug paraphenalia, which, for some reason, this 'girlfriend' did not take with her.  Because of this and because my son currently has no job, I am not sure that any large amount of money is what he needs at this time.  My son currently does not even have a bed in his room to sleep on, because when his girlfriend moved in, he willingly threw his bed into the trash because her bed was better.  Today, she took her bed and "almost" everything else with her , but this was all her stuff and the baby's. 
 
Another issue is with this girl's mother.  My son's  girlfriend's sister said that their mother will not be moving back into the house they all lived in, because her mother is now supposed to be in a psychiatric/dryout clinic, and then will be moving into a much smaller place when she gets out of there.  The youngest sister is supposed to be living with 'Granny', and the girlfriend's things are supposed to be moved in with 'Granny', while the girlfriend is supposed to live with her oldest sister and her sister's boyfriend for a few days but her oldest sister said she would help her sister to get her own apartment, and the "accident settlement money" would help with this, and to but her a car.  This "accident settlement moeny" is supposed to be split between him and his girlfriend. 
 
In addtion to this, I am pretty disgusted with this because I have been writing and writing for about six or seven years and them threw these writing in the fire, because 'this is supposed to be confiential'.  Therefore, I got disgusted when I saw no positive changes and saw a lot of this being washed through the media - in particualr news stories, so I started the web site as a last resort.  I have never been paid for any of this and was even "roughed up" by local police.  I think this is the exact thing that has happened to proevious victims who have been trapped in these people's cult.  
 
Also, I put the computer on defragmentation mode which it was on for two days in a row, plus a day late last week.  For some reason, even in "safe mode" it will go all the way through the "scan disk" part, but seems to have a hiccup in the 'disk defrag; area, and I suspect that this is a bug set up via some other location by crooks.  Computer will go to a certain 'percentage' and the most it has gone is to 82%, and then 'hiccpus' and goes all the way back to the beginning and starts again.  After three days of this, I gave up and assumed that this problem has been set up from some other location and that there is little I can do about it.  Because crooks tried to make me a victim of medical abuse at about the age of five, and kept doing this throughout my life out of spite, I think that they considered me dead and found all kinds of excuses for doing the kinds of things they did, and finally tried to trap me with creepy people.  These are the kinds of people that should be prosecuted and the cult stopped.  The way cult has been set up for me is that every chance, OPPORTUNITY, OR MONEY THAT I HAVE RECEIVED THROUGH SOMEONE HAS BEEN NEGATED, TAKEN AWAY, OR REDISTRIBITED TO SOMEONE ELSE OUT OF SPITE, LEAVING ME WITH NOTHING, FOR ALL OF MY GOOD EFFORTS AND GOOD WORKS, BECAUSE OF THESE ABUSIVE GANGS. 
September 24, 2002
I am an intelligence operative (aka spotter and analyst) and was born into this role, and have been a cop all of my life, but am not a street cop.  What crooks, who do not have my best interests in mind keep doing is trying to either abuse me to render me dysfunctional or they keep trying to 'dummy me down'.  If I had had the opportunity, I would have completed my education which would have included a law degree at the time.  I have always been in the middle of corruption and in the middle of some kind of crook group, but have never been these peoples's friend.  Crooks have done everything possible to "keep me quiet" but because of my setup this never totally worked.  Then, they used this as a"handicap"to run a cult.  In addition to this, crooks tried to claim that I was some kind of 'princess', 'whore', or some other thing they decided at the time, out of  spite.  Crooks tried every kind of abuse they could think of to change my role, and  have done the same thing to many other people who really are my cohorts and contemperaries.  The only way to get rid of this 'community voice totally is to kill me, which these people knew and is why they tried to pull me into medical abuse as a victim.  I feel that my primary role is this Intellignece role, whether I am paid or not.  Crooks who knew this scalped the salary not only from me, but from others in this same role, out of spite, because they were 'just crooks' looking for excuses.  Then, instead of some of these 'visible' law enforcement officers being part of the solution, they became part of the problem.  This is the Ohio problem in a nutshell.
September 24, 2002
Today in my life:
1. Second day at temporary job
2. "The girlfriend" showed up with her sister and baby and truck:  has plans to move back in but son is supposed to "clean up his room first" which he is currently doing at 6:36 pm.
3.  Found out from "The girlfriend's sister that their mother is an a group home - NOT a psychictric/detox center and that only she and her Granny have authorization to go in and take her mother out on outings in the community.
4.  Ex-husband called and said that he will be late and has to work mandatory overtime due to having to "get out" statistics that he calls "P-PAPP" studies.  In actualyity he came home at about 6:35pm instead of 6:00pm and said something about "missing parts that were supposed to be there, but plant is in discord and a mess so parts can't be found (yet)".  Then he said that they would have to "find these parts first and that he might be putting in overtime tomorrow night".
5.  Computer defragmentation program at home still does not work due to a 'bug' set up somewhere else, even while computer is in "safe mode".  Program still has 'hiccup' that allows defragmentation program to start but not to complete cycle and get to 100% complete and after a short time, starts again at beginning.  Highest percentage completed today was only 10%.  Instead of getting better, 'hiccup' in program apparently is getting worse, thanks to crooks.  I also cannot access my MSN hotmail using Outlook Express.  I sent these MSN people an email but have yet to receive an answer.  This is because Outlook Express keeps asking me for my password for Hotmail, and when I give what I know as my password, (which has not been changed)
this is not accepted by the Outlook Express program.  This could be causing the 'bug' or 'clog' in the computer network.   
6.  At 7:50 pm, son's girlfriend and her 'stuff' and her infant's 'stuff' has moved back into house.  Apparently her alternative living arrangements didn't work out or someone else wanted to charge her more rent than she pays here (which is $0).  
September 25, 2002
1.  Third day at current temporary job. 
2.  The only really unusual thing that happened today was that I encountered a "Highway Terrorist".  This man was threatening and abusive, and scared me.  What occurred was that I was in the fast lane of highway, going the speed limit, but could not get into slower, or right hand lane, due to the positioning of semi-trucks driving there.  This abusive man in this red (aka reddish maroon) Ford Mustang rode my bumper anyway, and then when I got  a chance, I got into the slower lane.  Then, man positioned himself right next to my car and was yelling something I could not hear (but could see his mouth moving rapidly and angrily), and he shook his fist at me.  I guess I sort of fed into this, because I got tired of this harassment and finally gave him "the finger" gesture.  Then, I slowed down and let him pass me.  I noticed that when he got ahead of me, he wove in and out around another 'victim' vehicle - a Honda jeep type vehicle.  Then, when  he got tired of that, he slowed way down and pulled in front of me.  He was right in front of me so when this happened,  so I called out his license plate number, (which was an Ohio license plate), but did not write this down, mainly because I think that anyone acting this suspicious and crazy is probably running some kind of fraud and doesn't care if plates on his car are traced, or really is crazy or self destructive.  Man was not driving in a "weaving way" as if a drunk driver, but was driving in an intentionally "menacing way" as if to bring attention to himself.  Because this man was acting crazy, I did not pass him, but followed behind him, and  then got off at my exit after he had already passed exit.  This man was middle aged (mid 40's to early 50's), caucasian, had short straight dark hair that looked either very dark brown or black (from my viewpoint) and had a thin face.  To me, this man looked like someone who was just out looking for trouble on the highway. 
3.  I also do not consider myself to be a well developed "psychic" or "clairavoyant", but for some reason, for many, many years, I can 'pick up' on things from people, mostly feelings and events, which they don't tell me, and have had this skill, which I am ashamed of, for too many years. I think that this ability developed because of being hurt for so many years with nothing to do about it except to bounce back and to have to adjust, and so therefore would be called a traumatic response.  (To be honest, there are many things about people that I would rather not know, and I think this makes me an oddball).   What goes with this is that I sensed today to be a very somber day, as if a National Holiday of mourning.  This was true of the feeling that pervaded in the community overall today.  However, there is  nothing marked on any calendar that I have to justify this, so although I felt this today, I sort of wrote it off.  However, I think including this in today's journal entry is very appropriate.   
September 26, 2002
I was just watching a segment on ABC News this morning about the spinal injury of actor Christopher Reeve, and was reminded of another neighber family in Medina.  I think this was another crook family.  These people lived driectly across the street from us and had three children.  The oldest son, Dave, really was attractive and resembled actor Christopher Reeve prior to the spinal injury, and was a football player.  He had a squarish face, dark hair, and was tall and large boned with a great build and was four years older than me.  I had a crush on him but since I was so shy, was afraid to talk to him, as if some kind of a god.  (This is how I was in high school in this male-female relationship area).  Then there was another son, Mark, who I keep seeing versions of, (saw a version of walking to the Wooster Wal-Mart store yesterday - in the parking lot), and who there was a version of in Columbus, working in an administrative position at Southeast Community Mental Health, where a friend of mine (Shira Ehrinberg) worked, but this guy was her supervisor and in an administrative position, and was using a totally different name.  This son, Mark, is who my mother kept trying to get me involved with, was someone I really never knew either and was not attracted to physically.  He was one or two years older than me and was a basketball player.  Then the daughter in this "Brockway" family, Valerie, was my sister Cheryl's age and was friends with my sister.  I had nothing to do with this family except that I had a crush on the oldest son, which nothing ever came of.
Evening 
I was noticing this morning how much like a "gutter rat" my son acts, if this really is my son.  I think this is an example of crooks using operatives to run a cult, if this really is my son and not one person switched for another, which these crooks also seem famous for.  He acts like some white person who is a ghetto black inside.  We never lived in the ghetto and I have no idea where he picked up this behaviour and incorporated in into himself, unless this was through all the time he spent in jail due to his gang like behaviour.  In addition to this, a local Wooster cop who abused me late at night and tried to set me up and throw me in jail and throw away the key was black.  At the time I did nothing but was out late at night, and was alone.  This is the black cop who made up allegations about me like "I went limp" after they handcuffed me, instead of doing whatever they expected me to do when abused late at night.  This cop called another cop to the scene, who was more an observer than anything else.  This is where these people were able to detain me for an entire weekend in jail and then when I came home, one of our dogs was missing and the other had blood gushing from her mouth and rearend, as if hit by a car.  (She  later died).  This is the kind of thing that these people do to abuse victims, and as a "power play".  In addition to this, this is where it gets "sticky" because blacks are involved and for some reason, in cult, blacks, no matter what they do, are "always right".  The thing about this, is that I was never a crook but in Columbus, crooks kept trying to do various things to set me up, but kept failing, because they did not have a stronghold there.  Then, after I moved to Wooster ratl\hole, a small, isolated town that someone is in control of, all I have had has been trouble, abuse, lack of employment, and islolation.  Crooks kept trying to set me up with one thing fter the other here in Wooster rathole.  The only thing that seemed to deter this was to do what they wanted me to do and write, but to throw these writings in the fireplace and burn them up.  I think this needs to be investigated by outside people and is still another example of gang behavior.  I think that what occurred when I started "spotting" and writing was that people became aware of who I was and I was pulled into the position that I should have been in years and years ago, but because there was no 'tangible, solid pages of writing', crooks still kept saying that I was also known as someone else, or that someone else was "really" doing this writing.  This occurred because no one bothered to tell me anything different, and because I really thought that this was supposed to be confidential, with no evidence.  I did not start this web site until I got throughly disgusted and saw few tangible results of all of this effort, and was trapped in a situation that I could not get out of.  During the course of this writing, I can't even number the incidents when crooks kept trying to pull me into things, but since I wrote about this and was receiveing help from other people at that time, they kept failing.         
September 28, 2002
The halftime (aka 50% of full time) job that I have had all week was as a temporary at First Energy in Massillon.  For some reason, applications are accepted through the Bureau of Employment Services for this utility company, but not on their premises.  The people who work there seem to all get along very, very well, as if they have known each  other for a very long time, but there are a couple of problems.  First, when electricity vouchers are given out to poverty stricken people who need to have their power turned back on for medical reasons, these are not recorded or followed up on.  Second, some of the people whose power has been disconnected come into office and threaten the customer service clerks and act like terrorists, according to one of the clerks there in this position.  This clerk said that she knows most of the Massillon police force, yet for some reason will not call the police when these people get out of hand.  These customer service clerks have to go through  a process to have people's power turned back on, and are mainly equipped to take bill payments, so are "sitting duck" victims when people act like this, and these disgrundled customers have to know this.  The customer service clerk that I talked to said that a disgrundled customer was so angry that they screached out of the parking lot and almost hit a four year old child.  This sounds like a situation that has gotton out of hand.  In addition to this, because of the fact that the State of Ohio has had so many cutbacks, social workers, who should be following up on people in Massillon, (which is a community that also houses a very large state psychiatric hospital), apparently aren't there to follow up on people or for long enough.  This sounds like another hazardous area, based on all of this. 
 
One of my own personal issues is that crooks pulled me into this "audit" type of position, but not as a state employee with a salary, but as a temporary employee.  This is because I was supposed to be married, and be dependent on my husband.  Then, if I did not fulfill the job, crooks kept abusing me with gangs, out of spite, so that crooks could scarf off the salary for this also, and run a cult.  Then, in addition to having substandard living circumstances, I am supposed to be bullied by some employees at these locations who tend to do this to temporary employees to take out their aggressions.  (To be honest, I only noticed a couple of people there who acted like bullies).
 
Also, there is currently an Oktoberfest going on in downtown Wooster this weekend.  Regardless of this, both Friday and Saturday nights (especially Friday) seem to be 'beer nights' in Wooster.  This is evident by going to any area convenience store in the evening and looking around, to see the line of people there purchasing beer.  This happens every week.
 
Also, in another unrelated area, I think that this is the time to talk about child care problems that we had while in Columbus, only because this recently came to mind.  At the time, I though this was just 'bad luck" because I had no idea that we were in the middle of gang activity.  Because we had problems with tempramental babysitters, and with babysitters who would quit with no notice when we were taking our son to childcare centers or individuals doing this babysitting in their own home, we chose to take our son to childcare centers for two main reasons: 1) So that he would be socialized with other children while we were at work and school, since he is an only child, and 2) Childcare Centers are more stable than these babysitting people we found and kept finding.  The "bad luck" part of this occurred because many of these people who worked in these child care places acted like as if they really didn't want to be there, but wanted to be doing other things and seemed to resent people dropping their kids off, which was very odd.  As a result, I seemed to have more than an ordinary amount of encounters with 'snitty bitches' who worked in these places and kept finding, or inventing, points of grievance. which were always some petty thing, but nevertheless time wasters since this kept occurring.  The point of this was to 'force interaction' by these people doing this with me, instead of picking up your child, and saying hello and goodbye to these people.  These were never significant things like :"Your child is ill", but petty things like "you are a minute late to pick up your child, so that will be an extra $50.00".  Because these people were so inappropriate, I did some research on them and found out that many of them were lucky to be even high school graduates if even this, but for some reason these child care places kept hiring low quality, snitty bitches for these places.  At the time, I thought that these people just didn't like me and were troublemakers but now I think this was gang activity.  This is particularly true because my son kept saying that a particular childcare worker did something to him that was inappropriate, and the person was named "Angel", and the childcare center would not prosecute or get rid of this person.  This happened in one child care center and so we changed child care centers, but I noticed that many of these people who work in these places seem to have bad attitudes and be generally low quality people, regardless of the cost of these child care centers.  Working parents are really at the mercy of finding good childcare resources and this is one area that definately needs a great deal of improvement.   
 
Part of the reason that I *think* I feel so sorry for myself so much of the time is that I still keep wanting to believe, and have believed for a long time things like: "Do the right thing and the rest will follow".  Unfortunately, this does not apply if you are stuck in a cult.  This is because no matter what you do while stuck in a cult, someone will disagree with you and beat you up over it, (physically, mentally, or emotionally) and many of these people are so extreme that they may even take your life out of spite.  This is because cult is not growth oriented, but it is set up to enable gangs, crooks, and the bad guys, who are the folks who take advantage of everyone else and trap victims.  Cult is set up so that no matter what path certain people take, they will lose so that gangs will win.  This was the  point of sucking up so much money to begin with, getting rid of various positions, creating circular roles, and interfering with people's lives.  In addition to all of this, the people who crooks keep trapping me with are the most obnoxious people that they can find, who I have absolutely no basis for any kind of relationship with except to fight with.  This is the kind of dynamic they keep creating for identified victims.  These are the people who I have always hid from, avoided, and had little to do with in the past, and now crooks trapped me with these people, who I consider perpetrators and always will, apparently out of spite.       
September 29, 2002
Son's girlfriend moved out today in a loud, abusive way, but son was gone at the time.  People who picked her up drove an old yellowish pickup truck, and this was supposed to be her father and father's wife, but these people were very young and both were blonde. like this girlfriend's baby.  It looks to me  that this baby, who seemed comfortable with this female who was supposed to be son's girlfriend's father's wife belongs to this couple, based on appearance and hair color.   This being the case, I wonder why they would 'lend' their child out.  In cult, someone keeps setting up puzzle after puzzle to be solved, and this looks like another one of them.
 
I was also watching a show tonight about the California prison system.  I wonder how many of the police who work inthese prison systems are monitored for honest.  This is because these are the people who have access to gangs that are in prison, drugs coming into prisons, and pretty much operate their own little communities within these prisons.  Most of these prison cops aren't interactive with the community that they are near and in and probably arean't watched that closely.  They also have a lot more responsibility with a tough population that is potentially harmful than most other cops.  I think that if there are groups of dirty cops around, the prisons would be the most appropriate place to look.  The fact that some kind of auditor or process for this hasn't been established up until now is amazing. 
September 30, 2002
No journal entry
 
October 1, 2002
I received a phonecall from Adecco this morning which they left on the answering machine.  When I called them back, they said the company was ending the temporary assignment.  This was after one week and a day.  What this correlates with is telling my ex-husband and son the day before that I had a temporary job that day and the next day.  This 'ex-husband' wanted to know why I wasn't home to take son shopping for a bed (which son did himself anyhow), wanted to know why I didn't tell him about this earlier, and why I was hiding things like this from him, and how long job was supposed to last, as if it were that important.  This is 'par for the course' because this man has set up all kinds of roadblocks for me in past in area of employment and obviously does not want me to work, 'or else' I become abused by him.  For some reason, I think this is part of the crooks cult.
 
About the only thing that I found out about the company that I worked for during this temporary time period is that they need to replace the Customer Counter Clerks.  This is because they already have a policy in place where these clerks are supposed to call the police when poeple show up as irate customers and do threatening things, but they refuse to do this.  One person said that this man does this regularly but that she thinks that he has a drug problem, and this is the reason that his electricity keeps getting turned off regularly and why he keeps showing up to reconnect his power and acts like a terrorist.  But, if this is true, not calling the police when man comes in and acts like a terrorist means man will never go to drug treatment if this is what is causing the problem, because contact with the police for these people is usually the first step to recovery.  I think that part of the problem here is that I do not think that these women like any kind of police, despite what they say, and are part of the crooks cult. 
 
Here's what I also think:
I noticed yesterday that there was a "Mondale Ferrarro" bumpersticker on a trashcan in the garage area, whick I passed through to smoke a cigarette outside.  When I mentioned something to a male employee sitting in area at a desk about this bumpersticker, (who "by coincidence" resembled Walter Mondale,)  and asked whether there was a lot of support for this political team in the Massillon, Ohio area, he only said "I think someone put bumpersticker there and it just stayed there".  The thing here is that this political race occurred years and years ago.  I suspect that "Massillon, Ohio" was a fund generating area, because there are two large state institutions in Massillon - "Indian River School" ( for unruly youth who are court referred there), and a State of Ohio psychiatric hospital.  I think that if crooks were looking for lists of names of disabled people, to cash in on this for some kind of insurance fraud or "polictical fundraising", this would be the kind of town to do it in.  I also thought that this was stopped years and years ago by "Campaign Finance Reform" and by forcing these politicians to provide a verifiable list of 'donors' to their campaigns with phone numbers and addresses who could be called and contacted, but for some reason, it looks like there is a 'knot' here that needs to be untied.  In my case scenerio, I was never in the state hospital in Massillon, BUT I  think I was put in the position of "Linda Penn", a friend of mine who was chronically mentally ill all of her life and died.  I know she was in many psychiatric hospitals all of her life and 'may have' been in Massillon state hospital at one time, when all of this "fundraising" was going on. (I don't know this for sure because I was not living in this area and was busy living my life.)  However, I DO know that my son was in Indian River School at one time and that we visited him there.  I have no idea why this problem has not been spotted and corrected before this, after all of these years.  I also suspect that crooks intentionally target communities like Massillon, Ohio which is relatively small, relatively isolated, and has large instiutions of people who could be "listed and claimed" for fundraising.  [Incidentally, I never volunteered to be in this position as a victim or as an analyst - and already had my degree in social work and wanted to work in my field for awhile and get a graduate degree, but NOT in Social Work, and do other things.  Someone else made the decision to keep having me abused by gangs until I did what 'someone' wanted me to do.  I never had any interest in participating in this because this was a 'drafted', not a volunteer position or a paid position and nobody offered me any kind of salary or compensation but to have crooks try to cause a disability to and trap me with a crook out of spite. Crooks also kept trying to trap me with other crooks and kept trying to divert me with abuse and the resulting  codependency].  I also think that the drug cult is going very strong in this small community of Massillon, Ohio for obvious aforementioned reasons, due to a large penal insititution for youth in community, mainly, and due to generalized  corruption in community.  It is obvious that there are a lot of things going on in this small community that shouldn't be, with enablers in positions where Intelligence people or police connected to other people should be - namely in these Customer Service Counter positions in this troubled community.  
 
Customer Service positions are important in a place like a utility company because this is a needed service.  Normal people would budget this expense into their living expenses and would never or rarely have problems with power being turned of unless they had a 'life' problem.  This should be dealt with via appropriate interface with agencies set up to be helpful.  The other thing here, is that I heard that the man who left yesterday, then turned around and spat into the door ater opening it slightly, then 'peeled out' of the parking lot comes in nearly every month with the some 'power shut off' problem and ALWAYS comes into the office, acting like a terrorist and then leaves the way I saw him leave yesterday, when I was standing outside.  The assumption with terrorist behaviour is that if a person acts like a terrorist in this scenerio, that this would be a good person for police to investigate and look further into the background of, because the probability is high that man also acts like this or worse in other scenerios and this truly IS a hazard to society at large.  In addition to this, this utility company also has this man's name and address and does not have to do the work that "some of us" do, trying to uncover person's real name and identity, thanks to cult.
 
There was also another 'small thing' that I observed this morning and I...
think that this is worth mentioning here.  What this entails is cigarette displays.  If I back up here a little bit, I took a job a while ago which was 'merchandising' and involved traveling to various stores with cigarette displays.  I never started job because of problems with my 'ex' at that time, who kept throwing roadblocks in my path about 'all of this traveling', and in I reality did not have a very reliable car at the time.  I could have rented a car or 'etc' but would have had to fight with this 'ex' about things since he 'felt neglected' right after he heard that I got this job and started complaining about me having to take him for doctor's appointments and etc. and he didn't want me working in this job, so I called this employer (who was an agency - NOT the Principle for this) and quit before I started.  A couple of weeks ago, I went to the Wooster Clark station, which I don't really go to often, and noticed two men changing the cigarette display and rearranging this in an obvious way, as if to be noticed.  While there, I talked to them and mentioned what they were doing.  Today, when I went into the same gas station also to buy cigarettes, there was a man there complaining to a Clark station employee about this display.  This man was not one of the two men who were there previously, who I saw.  The man today sounded irate and accusatory, and the 'victim' employee was saying something about a 'female from your company' who did this.  Although a female could have been there at some point in time, I never saw her.  Because of the obviousness of this, I think this is supposed to be part of the area I am supposed to "spot" and comment on.
 
Here's What I think (part 2):
Although this Ferrorro/Mondale campaign was a politial campaign run years and years ago, I think that this name relates back to my ex-husband, not to me.  The reason I think this is because...
When he was at the hospital last time aka Canton Aultman there were two different men, who were about the same age, who fit the same general description and could also fit the written description of this ex husband but one name was spelled "Ferraro" and the other spelled "Ferroro".  These were two seperate lookalike men, both in hospital at the same time, not far from each other, as if part of the cult set up by someone.  I also think that this 'psycho ex-girlfriend' of my son's is some version of one of my cousins, who was in a with other versions of same person, named "Susan".  In addition to all of this, crooks got into the system and tried to make this "gangster thing" larger than life.  They succeeded for awhile, and I think part of this was recreating  this "Packard" like car - aka a "Bonnie and Clyde mob type car" en masse, (aka the "new" PT Cruiser) because I think this was someone's favorite car.  To do this, they had to get into the automotive design area in Detroit Michigan, or a nearby Michigan automotive manufacturer.  Also, please see the article printed below:
 

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The Chronicle of Philanthropy

From the issue dated June 13, 2002

Grooming Better Grant Makers

Foundations start new efforts to share advice about their craft

By Stephen G. Greene

For Yodon Thonden, who runs a small New York foundation established by her husband, a trip

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Helping Charities: Advice From Ford


to South Africa in April provided an interesting exercise in grant-making dynamics.

She and eight other donors and grant makers -- including women from New Zealand, Sri Lanka, and Taiwan -- had each contributed at least $5,000 to a pool for distribution to some of the South African charities they visited during their weeklong trip. The gifts were one of the conditions of their participation in the Philanthropy Workshop, a yearlong course sponsored by the Rockefeller Foundation that exposes new philanthropists to some of the principles, skills, and strategies of giving away money.

"It was a fascinating process of building consensus," says Ms. Thonden, a lawyer who until last year worked for the children's-rights division of Human Rights Watch, in New York. "My vision is broader now," she adds. "Before, I was researching a very discrete issue."

The course, which culminates this week in a critique session in which each participant proposes a grant of at least $10,000 to a U.S. organization and then defends his or her choice before a panel of peers and Rockefeller program officers, is part of a broad push by grant makers to make philanthropy more effective. While some programs are aimed at grant-making neophytes like Ms. Thonden, others seek to help more experienced program officers and foundation executives, and to help ensure that promising ideas and "best practices" are diffused more quickly and widely.

Those programs are being underwritten by several other major grant makers, including the Ford, Ewing Marion Kauffman, and David and Lucile Packard Foundations.

The efforts are prompted in part by recognition that traditional ways of grooming grant makers are insufficient, given the large influx of donors and foundation officials with little or no experience in philanthropy. More than 5,000 foundations were created in the United States last year alone, and many more are sure to follow, as the World War II generation bequeaths trillions of dollars to its heirs, and as many of the people who made millions in the past decade turn their attention to giving some of it away.

"In the past, at foundations, the feeling was that whatever they did was great, and no one was thinking very hard about whether they were making a difference," says Vicki Rosenberg, chief operating officer of the Council of Michigan Foundations. Today, however, "a lot of people are thinking hard about how foundations do their work: Are they doing the best work they can? Are they getting the best results they hope to achieve? People are being self-critical, trying to make sure the money's hitting the mark and going as far as it can."

And as foundations increasingly scrutinize their grantees in hopes of tweaking their performance and making them more effective, inevitably some grant makers are turning that same spotlight on themselves.

"People are searching for examples of how to do different things in the field," says Jan Jaffe, who directs the Ford Foundation's latest attempt to develop better philanthropists, a program called GrantCraft, which was announced this spring. "There's more examination of what grant-making skills and tools are, and how you transmit them."

She adds: "So many new grant makers and donors are coming into the field and saying, How do I learn to do this?"

Little Formal Training

Grant makers often enter the world of philanthropy with extensive experience in and a passion for a particular field of interest -- the arts, education, the environment, or social policy, for example -- but with little formal training in all the elements that can convert that passion into productive results.

"Say you really care about K-12 reform," says Ms. Jaffe. "It takes all your energy to stay on top of that field. But then you also have a second discipline, which is grant making." Traditionally, the "craft" of making grants has received short shrift, she says, partly because the activity is relatively new and has not developed the training and educational structures that characterize fields like art, education, or social work.

GrantCraft tries to fill part of the gap by distributing more widely the kinds of materials presented to new program officers at Ford as part of their weeklong orientation. For years, Ford has informally allowed other local grant makers to sit in on those sessions, but it decided recently to make such information available to a broader audience. The result is GrantCraft's growing collection of publications and videos that distill the experiences and successful strategies of officials at Ford and other foundations and nonprofit groups when confronting a wide range of topics.

Video titles include "Building a Network" and "Scaling Up Successful Work." Among the guides are "Building Community" and "When Projects Flounder."

Much of the information may be downloaded from the project's Web site, http://www.grantcraft.org. Grant makers may order up to three videos online. All of the videos are also available for viewing at the Foundation Center libraries in Atlanta, Cleveland, New York, San Francisco, and Washington.

'Foundation in a Box'

Also available online, starting next month, will be an Internet version of the Foundation in a Box project sponsored by the Association of Small Foundations, in Bethesda, Md. The project, designed for foundations that have few or no full-time paid staff members, involves compiling hundreds of pages of material from scores of diverse sources like BoardSource, the publisher Jossey-Bass, and the National Center for Family Philanthropy. A print version is to follow in September.

"You're not necessarily born knowing how to be a philanthropist," says Charles Scott, the association's executive director. "A lot of people enter the foundation world a little nervous."

The association is also increasing the number of Trustee Leadership Seminars it holds around the country to keep pace with growing interest among its members, who include many novices in philanthropy who find themselves sitting on foundation boards. "They are good at business, but they have never given money away before, and they want to do it effectively," Mr. Scott says. "They learn how to evaluate a financial statement, how to look at a budget, and how to do challenge grants or matching grants," among a long list of other topics, he says.

Workshops Added

Surging interest among grant makers who are focused on becoming better at their trade has also prompted the Council on Foundations to beef up its schedule of workshops aimed at improving skills among foundation board and staff members.

The council used to hold its Institute for New Grantmakers every other year, notes its chief executive officer, Dorothy S. Ridings. Even after it switched to annual sessions a few years ago, those institutes were still oversubscribed, she says, with many more people wanting to attend than the 150-person limit would allow. So this year the council is offering two such institutes, one in Portland, Ore., in July and another in Washington in December.

Since 1982, those institutes have trained more than 1,500 grant makers in the principles and practices of grant making and the world of philanthropy, says Ms. Ridings. But because people differ in their learning styles and their tolerance for large conferences, she observes, the council in January began offering Grantmaker Basics as an online course of study. So far, 61 people have signed up for the course, which they follow at their own pace and usually complete in a year. In some cases, participants are matched with experienced foundation officials who serve as mentors, making themselves available for consultation by phone and e-mail.

Many regional associations of grant makers are also active in giving their members the tools they need to become better at their jobs. While many cater to newcomers to the field, some also focus on more experienced staff members.

Grantmakers of Western Pennsylvania for several years has offered daylong workshops for its members, which it calls Grantmaking 101. But it plans to add a more sophisticated workshop -- Grantmaking 201 -- this fall, with Grantmaking 301 to follow next spring, says Judith Donaldson, the executive director.

"We're trying to develop lifelong learning curricula" for association members, Ms. Donaldson says, that will continue to be useful for grant makers throughout their careers.

"Grantmaking 201 and 301 are designed to look at the role of grant maker as community leader," she says. "In 201, they do a self-assessment: How far have you come? What are your strengths? What do you need to develop?"

A common thread in many of the current efforts is encouraging grant makers to feel a part of a much broader enterprise.

"There is a significant sense of isolation in the field," says Lynn D.W. Luckow, president of Northern California Grantmakers, which recently polled state foundation officials about their jobs and careers. "To find out who else is working on the same things they're working on is helpful, and good for morale. It helps the field become more effective when they can learn from the successes and failures of other organizations."

Different Perspectives

Grant makers are much more willing, even eager, to join forces now than in previous decades, says Ms. Rosenberg, of the Council of Michigan Foundations -- in part because they recognize the value of exchanging ideas with people whose perspective on grant making may differ from their own.

"There is more of a tendency to collaborate, to learn from other foundations, and to seek opportunities to leverage your money," she says. "In the past, if you were a small funder, you didn't see opportunity, and if you were big, you didn't see need. But there's so much information out there, and things are changing so fast, that there's an awareness of the need to be involved in public-policy issues. I don't think you can work in isolation anymore and do the job well."

That belief also informs Rockefeller's Philanthropy Workshop, which is building a network of alumni around the world, many of whom are exploring grant-making collaborations with one another.

Workshop participants attend four intensive weeklong sessions over the course of a year -- three in the United States and one in a developing country. The curriculum, taught by Rockefeller officials and other experts, combines readings in philosophy and literature with skills-building sessions and site visits to many nonprofit groups.

"They taught us to be proactive and outcome-driven, but not so hung up on achieving results that you can't take risks," says Ms. Thonden, who runs the Isdell Foundation with her husband, Kevin Toner, and is its sole staff member. "Also, to take on big problems, but break them down into their smaller parts to make them more understandable."

Mr. Toner, founder of a hedge fund on Wall Street, established the foundation to support a variety of activist causes. Its current focus is promoting self-determination for the people of Tibet, mostly through grants to American groups. Ms. Thonden's parents emigrated to New York from Tibet, which in 1949 was invaded by Chinese troops.

'Actual Nuts and Bolts'

"For me," says Ms. Thonden, "because I've had no experience in grant making, the actual nuts and bolts of what to look for in a grant proposal, how to assess the health of an organization you're considering supporting, the nature of grantor-grantee relationships -- all this practical training was incredibly useful for me."

Salvatore LaSpada, who directs the Philanthropy Workshop, calls it a "grueling philanthropic boot camp" that offers "training in social problem solving" rather than mere grant making. "Strategic philanthropy is about much more than simply picking organizations, no matter how effective they might be," he says. "It's about investing private capital to devise comprehensive strategies which seek to create change at a systemic level."

Ms. Thonden seems to have taken that message to heart. "Now, I'm not so focused on specific programs but on building powerful organizations," she says, "putting more focus on capacity building for the different Tibet support groups we're involved with, making them stronger so they can be more effective overall and able to sustain themselves over time."

While working for Human Rights Watch, Ms. Thonden spent part of her time helping to raise money to support its activities. From her new perspective, the line between grant seeker and grant maker is fuzzier than it previously appeared.

"When I became a grant maker, I always thought I'd be grant making," says Ms. Thonden. "But one thing I've learned is that in order to be a good grant maker, you've got to be a good fund raiser, using your social capital to draw in support for organizations you believe in."

She adds: "I thought my fund-raising days were over, but now I'm realizing they're just beginning."


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original link that this was from was http://philanthropy.com/free/articles/v14/i17/17000701.htm

I think that this article is relevant in cult.  I don't know if these 'scenerios' were created from article, or if article was created to 'wash' the cult, but there are too amny similarities between what is happening and this article to be inconsequential. 

P.S. - when I went to get onto my web site tonight, it "disappeared, as did 'Tripod.com.'  By coincidence, there was a segment on CNN about a victim who was beaten up and killed by a teenaged mob on television at the same time, as if some kind of weird correlation: missing = missing.  In addition to this, this cult seems to be coming from my mother's sode at this point, because Susan and Karen were both cousins on that side - aka my mother's brother's children.  These two used to make me a victim along with their friends because I didn't drink and use drugs and their favorite pastimes years ago when I saw them prior to getting married myself was riding around in cars with boys drinking.  I have no idea what kind of people they turned out to be later in life.  This is part of the cult that I am really at a loss at, because I didn't live near these people at the time and lived in another state.  (them - Pennsylvania ; me - Ohio).  I also vaguely remember a story about relatives where the man, who was sort of a 'benevolent father' figure kept enabling brats at the expense of his wife.  If this is a case of operatives being used where the original people were then this "woman" would have been my ex husband's first wife, who was closer to his age (55-56), and is someone who I don't think that I ever met.  I suspect that this woman lives in area because of some of the abuse that I have received when 'working all of this through'.  I also think that someone placed the two (Ferroro/Ferraro) men there in the hospital at the same time as my ex-husband close to where he was, with their names outside of the door for me to see, as some part of the cult.  The thing is these men look alike and could be described as alike, but were clearly two different men with slightly different, but very similar last names.  When all of this was occurring, I 'wrote it out, then 'threw it in the fire and burned it up', but had no web site at the time.   

I also would like to say something about my son's girlfriend's moveout here...
The thing here is that my son moved 'the girlfirend' in, but when she moved out, he left the house and left me to deal with her.  This girlfriend has a nasty, vile, abusive mouth and seemed to target all of the abuse toward me, as if a personal vendetta.  I could joke and say that I needed "the Exorcist" at that time, but this is exactly what she acted like - like a mentally ill, possessed person who was out of control.  My son's father finally came out an supervised this, while I went out and tried to find my son, but to my surprise, she also acted abusive toward him.  Where ever my son hid during this 'move out' he hid well because I could not find him anywhere in Wooster. 

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October 2, 2002
There is also an Ohio couple who became very instrumental in the cult problem.  Somehow, these people intertwined themselves with me, and kept victimizing me in various ways.  I "think" this has to do with using operatives and with Ohio politics.  These people could have been my friends, but instead chose to be my perpetrators.  Man is attractive in a clean cut way, has short straight dark hair, and I "think" this is a version of a man who worked at Buehler's in Medina when I worked there years and years ago as a clerk in high school, who I knew as "Mark Congrove".  This is someone who I liked at that time, but never dated, and who was close to my age, but w